steven

June 8th, 2009
(steven enjoying a piece of leftover mangled pizza from asher)

we have had a few birthdays in our home over the last few weeks and steven came next in the line up on june 2nd. the kids and i made him a little cake and surprised him at work one day and took him out to dinner. he picked claim jumper and we had a blast. we aren’t big celebrators so this was pretty much all that happened.

i am grateful to have steven in my life. he works so hard so that i can stay home with our children. he has also started going back to school in the last year so he is even busier. he leaves for work at around 7, doesn’t get home until 7’ish and then has to start homework. fortunately for him, he is one of those people that does good in school without too much effort and this time around i think he is actually enjoying it a little. he is a great dad and a wonderful husband and i am so thankful to have him in my life.

happy 33rd birthday babe!

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steven

June 8th, 2009
(steven enjoying a piece of leftover mangled pizza from asher)

we have had a few birthdays in our home over the last few weeks and steven came next in the line up on june 2nd. the kids and i made him a little cake and surprised him at work one day and took him out to dinner. he picked claim jumper and we had a blast. we aren’t big celebrators so this was pretty much all that happened.

i am grateful to have steven in my life. he works so hard so that i can stay home with our children. he has also started going back to school in the last year so he is even busier. he leaves for work at around 7, doesn’t get home until 7’ish and then has to start homework. fortunately for him, he is one of those people that does good in school without too much effort and this time around i think he is actually enjoying it a little. he is a great dad and a wonderful husband and i am so thankful to have him in my life.

happy 33rd birthday babe!

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lily belle

June 8th, 2009
happy birthday lily! i have been sorely neglecting my blogging duties so i have to catch up starting with lily’s birthday that was on May 10th. i can’t believe that my little baby has grown from this tiny little baby (well not that tiny at 9.3 i think she was closer to a 1 month old) with tubes up her nose and hooked to all sorts of monitors

to this grown up beautiful five year old.

five years have gone by so fast and that is a little scary to think about. how fast will the next 5 years go? for now she loves to play with her brothers, loves puzzles, games, any kind of craft, making messes (not cleaning them up), high school musical 1, 2 & 3, princesses, pink, purple, coloring, writing words, trying to read, she only eats chicken nuggets, quesadilla’s, pizza, grilled cheese, any kind of fruit, yogurt, candy, cakes, cookies & milk. she literally wont eat eat something if she is not sure that she will love it. this is where her stubborn side shows the most because she is more than happy to got to bed without eating to save herself from eating anything that she might not like. even though this is so frustrating sometimes, i love that she accepts the consequences of not eating what i have made with such grace. lily is constantly singing or talking. unless she is in her room for quiet time (she hates that i make her do this), i can be guaranteed to hear some sort of chattering. lily is very studious and i just know that she will be the best student in our home. ever since preschool ended, she keeps asking, “how many more days until summer is over?” the girl can’t wait to start kindergarten this year. i thank heavenly father everyday for bringing her love and light into our home. i love you lily belle

lily shoving her face with cake at her little party.

opening one of her presents wearing a hat that she made at school.

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lily belle

June 8th, 2009
happy birthday lily! i have been sorely neglecting my blogging duties so i have to catch up starting with lily’s birthday that was on May 10th. i can’t believe that my little baby has grown from this tiny little baby (well not that tiny at 9.3 i think she was closer to a 1 month old) with tubes up her nose and hooked to all sorts of monitors

to this grown up beautiful five year old.

five years have gone by so fast and that is a little scary to think about. how fast will the next 5 years go? for now she loves to play with her brothers, loves puzzles, games, any kind of craft, making messes (not cleaning them up), high school musical 1, 2 & 3, princesses, pink, purple, coloring, writing words, trying to read, she only eats chicken nuggets, quesadilla’s, pizza, grilled cheese, any kind of fruit, yogurt, candy, cakes, cookies & milk. she literally wont eat eat something if she is not sure that she will love it. this is where her stubborn side shows the most because she is more than happy to got to bed without eating to save herself from eating anything that she might not like. even though this is so frustrating sometimes, i love that she accepts the consequences of not eating what i have made with such grace. lily is constantly singing or talking. unless she is in her room for quiet time (she hates that i make her do this), i can be guaranteed to hear some sort of chattering. lily is very studious and i just know that she will be the best student in our home. ever since preschool ended, she keeps asking, “how many more days until summer is over?” the girl can’t wait to start kindergarten this year. i thank heavenly father everyday for bringing her love and light into our home. i love you lily belle

lily shoving her face with cake at her little party.

opening one of her presents wearing a hat that she made at school.

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lily belle

June 8th, 2009
happy birthday lily! i have been sorely neglecting my blogging duties so i have to catch up starting with lily’s birthday that was on May 10th. i can’t believe that my little baby has grown from this tiny little baby (well not that tiny at 9.3 i think she was closer to a 1 month old) with tubes up her nose and hooked to all sorts of monitors

to this grown up beautiful five year old.

five years have gone by so fast and that is a little scary to think about. how fast will the next 5 years go? for now she loves to play with her brothers, loves puzzles, games, any kind of craft, making messes (not cleaning them up), high school musical 1, 2 & 3, princesses, pink, purple, coloring, writing words, trying to read, she only eats chicken nuggets, quesadilla’s, pizza, grilled cheese, any kind of fruit, yogurt, candy, cakes, cookies & milk. she literally wont eat eat something if she is not sure that she will love it. this is where her stubborn side shows the most because she is more than happy to got to bed without eating to save herself from eating anything that she might not like. even though this is so frustrating sometimes, i love that she accepts the consequences of not eating what i have made with such grace. lily is constantly singing or talking. unless she is in her room for quiet time (she hates that i make her do this), i can be guaranteed to hear some sort of chattering. lily is very studious and i just know that she will be the best student in our home. ever since preschool ended, she keeps asking, “how many more days until summer is over?” the girl can’t wait to start kindergarten this year. i thank heavenly father everyday for bringing her love and light into our home. i love you lily belle

lily shoving her face with cake at her little party.

opening one of her presents wearing a hat that she made at school.

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new moon

May 29th, 2009
i know this is a long time coming but i saw this today and thought i would share with all of you who are as excited as i am. so for those of you that think it is stupid that i like these books and movies just don’t read and especially don’t comment.

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new moon

May 29th, 2009
i know this is a long time coming but i saw this today and thought i would share with all of you who are as excited as i am. so for those of you that think it is stupid that i like these books and movies just don’t read and especially don’t comment.

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new music: shakespear’s song

April 19th, 2009

so, a friend of ours was having her 10th anniversary and wanted us to write a song to some lyrics that she wrote. i’ve never really done anything like that but we thought it would be fun to try and we had the whole thing finished in about 15 minutes. recording it took a little bit longer, but i really like the finished product. plus, i rip out my best classic rock solo just after the 2 minute mark. that alone is worth the price of admission. check it out below.

[audio:Shakespear’sSong.mp3]

to download, right-click here and choose “save as…”

heller family tunes, music of the week

crazy dream

April 13th, 2009

so, i had a crazy dream last night that i think bears sharing. i rarely remember my dreams and when i do they’re usually nothing special.

for this particular dream i was at some big park with a bunch of my family. it almost seemed like we were having a family reunion or something. the park was huge and they’re were all sorts of people just wandering around. i was on the other side of the park away from my family when i happened to see somebody that looked familiar. as i looked closer, i realized it was britney spears. for some reason i really wanted to talk to her so i approached her and just started chatting her up. she was being accosted by a bunch of people so i just played it cool. i didn’t want to fawn all over her or anything. i think she realized that i was the only normal one there so she kept talking to me. we talked off and on for a while before i decided that as much as i wanted to talk to her, dealing with the huge crown of people that was gathering wasn’t worth it, so i decided to head back to my family. when i got back to where everyone was gathered under a large awning, i noticed that most everybody was crying. i thought that somebody must be moving or going on a mission or something and everybody was just sad. that’s when i noticed that somebody was on top of my father giving him CPR. i realized that my dad was dying and i could tell that he wasn’t going to be around much longer. i pushed the person out of the way and tried to save him. he looked me in the eyes and all i could think of is that i should have been there for him.

so, what does this all mean? i’m not usually one to ascribe meaning to my dreams, but as soon as i woke up from this one, i think i know exactly what it meant. how much time do i burn in the pursuit of worthless goals? how much time do i spend away from my family in the name of mindless entertainment? how about you?

words

ice cream

April 13th, 2009
we decided to go to mcdonald’s one night to get an ice cream cone and this is how much asher enjoyed it. i don’t think we had ever given him a cone before and now i know why. he would literally just shove his face into it thus the craziest mess. it was soaked into his jacket, messed in his hair, eyebrows and needless to say, his hands were covered with it. thankfully lily and jackson were much better at eating their ice cream and created no further messes.



this was obviously a while ago because asher still had his lovely hair. by the way, we did end up buzzing his hair and it looks much better than when we got it cut at the hair place. i have to say that i am looking forward to the curls growing back and if they don’t, i will be very disappointed.

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