raising heller

so, i had a crazy dream last night that i think bears sharing. i rarely remember my dreams and when i do they’re usually nothing special.

for this particular dream i was at some big park with a bunch of my family. it almost seemed like we were having a family reunion or something. the park was huge and they’re were all sorts of people just wandering around. i was on the other side of the park away from my family when i happened to see somebody that looked familiar. as i looked closer, i realized it was britney spears. for some reason i really wanted to talk to her so i approached her and just started chatting her up. she was being accosted by a bunch of people so i just played it cool. i didn’t want to fawn all over her or anything. i think she realized that i was the only normal one there so she kept talking to me. we talked off and on for a while before i decided that as much as i wanted to talk to her, dealing with the huge crown of people that was gathering wasn’t worth it, so i decided to head back to my family. when i got back to where everyone was gathered under a large awning, i noticed that most everybody was crying. i thought that somebody must be moving or going on a mission or something and everybody was just sad. that’s when i noticed that somebody was on top of my father giving him CPR. i realized that my dad was dying and i could tell that he wasn’t going to be around much longer. i pushed the person out of the way and tried to save him. he looked me in the eyes and all i could think of is that i should have been there for him.

so, what does this all mean? i’m not usually one to ascribe meaning to my dreams, but as soon as i woke up from this one, i think i know exactly what it meant. how much time do i burn in the pursuit of worthless goals? how much time do i spend away from my family in the name of mindless entertainment? how about you?

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