11:00pm
i have tried on two seperate occations today to post a blog with pictures but i can’t get my camera to sinc with iphoto, sooo you are once again stuck with my writing. i was just feeding asher and he spit up all over me. i had to completely change my clothes, don’t you love that! well i had a day filled with yelling and screaming. when jackson doen’t get the proper amount of sleep, he can’t deal very well. i guess we are similar in that respect because i didn’t get enough sleep last night either and i had a hard time dealing as well. so with that said, i am grateful for sleep. i am grateful for children who sleep. up until asher, i have always had amazing sleepers. i am not ruling him out yet but the last month hasn’t been so great. i do believe that things are going to be getting better. it might just be wishful thinking but i can feel it in the air.
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1:07am
today was a mellow day. we were able to get to church on time, our children weren’t too crazy during sacrament meeting, we took a nap after church and steven’s mom made a delicious cake after dinner. i am grateful for mellow days. it is nice to be able to just hang out as a family and not to have too much chaos. it helps me to see what it might be like when our children are older and less energetic. having a preschooler a toddler and a baby doesn’t lend itself to mellow. it is nice to have a glimpse into the future.
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12:36am
well, i have already missed one day and it hasn’t even been a week yet. i am grateful for communication. i think it is so important to communicate with your spouse. i am grateful to have a husband that cares enough to want to communicate with me. we had a little argument today and he truly was disappointed that it had happened. he really wanted to talk it out and i love that. i am grateful to be married to such a loving and helpful man (i hate saying man but boy just doesn’t really work here.) i mean out of nowhere he just went ahead and cleaned the bathroom (of all chores) tonight and i was so extremely happy. he is a good husband i don’t think i tell him enough. i need to try harder.
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12:08am
today was pretty normal until i got into a car accident tonight. Heavenly Father really looks out for me! the accident was my fault and all i kept thinking was, if my children had been hurt, it would have from my lack of attention. i forgot my glasses and i was having a hard time navigating my friend dena was in the car so i said i’ll let you drive. well i decided to turn left off a one way street an i turned in frount of a car. fortunately he hit my car in a way that no one was hurt. the car hit right between me and jack. the kids didn’t even cry. i am grateful that Heavenly Father can teach me to be more attentive as well as to always wear my glasses when driving without anyone getting hurt. i am thankful that my babies are safe.
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12:14am
i really am not sure what this entry is going to be about. i am having a hard time with nursing. asher eats ok but at night, he wakes up so much and when i choose not to feed him he is now really hard to get back to sleep. i have never had a child with sleep issues before. i guess my frustration with nursing is i have no way of knowing if he is getting enough food during the day. he was sleeping amazing untill about three or four weeks ago. he was sleeping from like 7 or 8 untill 4 or 5. now he gets up at around 11:30, 2, 4 and sometimes 6. i know that he doesn’t need to eat! he is a big boy so i know that he is gaining weight. i am just at a loss. i was up from 1 until 2 this morning tyring to get him back to sleep, and that was after nursing him. would giving him formula help or has he just gotten into a bad habit and i just need help breaking him of it? what do i do?
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11:19pm
i watched oprah this afternoon and it was about couples who weren’t able to conceive. they were talking about using surrogates from india. it was sad listening to the desperation these people felt about not being able to have a child. i can’t even imagine. i totally take for granted the fact that i am fertle mertle. i know that i would be totally crazy if i couldn’t have children. i am so grateful that i have my beautiful babies and watching this show has made me appreciate them even more than i already did.
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10:59 pm
well i have to admit that it is the second day that i have decided to do this and i almost forgot. i guess Heavenly Father is trying to help me keep my promise. i am truly grateful that i have the opportunity to stay home with my children. sometimes i get really frustrated and then one of my children will unexpectedly hug or kiss me and the frustration melts away. how do they know how to get to us? they have this amazing ability to change my mood in a split second. i guess what i am trying to say is that Heavenly Father is teaching me patience which i definately need.
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well, i have a new mission. after watching the morning session of conference this morning October 7th, i have decided to add something new to my blog. For years, President Eyring would write a couple sentences (every day) about where he saw the hand of the Lord in his everyday life. i am going to try to do the same thing. i want to be able to leave my children knowing that i could see the positive in everyday. if i can teach them to do at least that i will be happy. here it begins:
October 7th, 2007
i am grateful for conference. i am grateful to be able to hear from the leaders of our church and see how they have lived their lives. today has made me want to be a better mother, wife and daughter. i hope that i can learn to achieve this someday.
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i love it when there is moisture in the air because this is what happens to his hair. curley hair and a dimple, what more could you ask for? during normal weather it is curley for a while after his bath then it gets wavy but flat against his head. i still have high hopes for his to turn into the fro that steven had as a kid.
this kid is so funny. he smiles quite frequently but has only laughed a couple of times. he is a pretty hard sell and i am not very funny. this was pretty much how jack was but now i am the funniest person in the world to him so i guess i grew on him. hopefully i grow on ash.
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